The days went by...

On Friday night, I had dinner with Weelee and said that I was happy because I'd get to see Ms N again the next day during our NIE course.

On Saturday morning, I did see Ms N, but I was not happy. That's because she's sitting with another guy. There's only 2 of them in that row of seats. And she looked happy.

On Sunday night, I tried to think back what I did since then, but I couldn't. I just didn't care. I vaguely remember hovering around Jurong Point yesterday. Went to choir practice today but then found out there's audition and no practice, and I couldn't leave coz it was raining heavily. Went for dinner alone at JEC after the rain stopped, then had coffee at Jurong East Library.

I stoned there from 5.30pm to 7.30pm, not really paying attention to things.

I was in a state of utter indifference to the world around me, and I guess I looked kinda scary, coz people were looking at me funny. I can't say that I feel sad, coz I dun feel like crying. I guess I'm depressed, deflated. There's a constant gnawing feeling in my heart, like a bag of hungry rats is eating me away from inside. I felt nothing, coz I have nothing to feel for anymore.

No books were marked today. And I think I'll just hover around like a ghost for the rest of the week.

That's how the days went by.